Farewell.

I was having a cup of hot chocolate on my coffee table before going to bed when I came across this yellow envelope that has my name on it. I opened it without hesitating as I was confound. It looked to me as an invitation card from the prefectorial board. That totally proved my judgements wrong. So I thought there isn’t going to be any farewell party for the graduating senior prefects. That actually left me in anger. But when I got the invitation, I was totally touched by the words in the card. Atleast, we are all remembered.

Little miss sunshine

Amazed-Lonestar
Every time our eyes meet
This feeling inside me
Is almost more than I can take
Baby when you touch me
I can feel how much you love me
And it just blows me away
I’ve never been this close to anyone or anything
I can hear your thoughts
I can see your dreams

Assets.

At some point, you will experience fun and at some point, sorrows. A man’s fate can change, but a man’s destiny will never change. Just as I thought I was the best, many others emerge out of nowhere. As I reckon deeper and narrow it down, I was slowly drifting away and losing my focus. Money can’t make the world go round, looks doesn’t really last a love but personality does. The essential character of a person is what one should look into. It’s such a disgrace for people with a well paid job to be so uncivilized. I despise humans with bad character. Of a certain kind.

Life’s a SCHALET!

Pass.

As  my dad drove past a diving shop by Arab street, I was reminded of a will of mine. It’s has been inside for nearly a year. It was actually my dad’s decision that brought interest to me. And now, I’m going desperate for it. Whenever my dad wants to enroll me into the school for the diver’s license, mom would always reason up with him, laying out all the cons and not the pros,leaving my dad clueless and going back on his plans. I somehow despise mom for this. I’m aware of the fact that actually people died from this. It can be considered dangerous but if safety precautions were taken, it would reduce the risk, no doubt. My plans was, to master diving, make it as a profession and be a professional diver to make it as a constant career. It’s a well paid job I would say. I don’t consider it awkward. I love the airlines and marine industries. And if I were to start achieving all these, in 5 years, I’m sure to make it. Well eventually in the end, they agreed yes, I would start in December!

Change.

A person can make a change to it’s life. Be it, good to bad or bad to good. It’s just a small part. The biggest concern is, will the change be constant or will the old self be restored as time passes by? I’ve experienced this way too many times. But it all ended up in vain. Life is short but life is too long to live alone. We won’t live  for long anyway. For once I thought, I need a change. A constant and stable change that doesn’t bring me back to my past. I hope I will be motivated throughout.

Barely.

I’ve finally managed to figure out partly what went wrong. These days, I’m just a little too paranoid. And assurance was what I needed, all along. Wild thoughts couldn’t stop appearing whenever I’m alone. Well, talking to someone and taking in advices do helps, really. With coldplay in my constant playback playlist, it eases the worries. It’s just something about music can change one’s feeling.

Questions.

My mind is troubled and my heart, is not at ease at all. The sign of unknown is everywhere. For once, my bed is not important and that is why, I’m here personally just to blog. I’m at a lost, a complete lost. What a roller-coaster. I couldn’t filter my search for anyone to listen to me at this hour. Everyone is asleep I bet. There’s just so many happenings at one go. Even as I sat down, observing the surroundings, everything is just different. A drastic change in just split seconds. I wondered. The more I reckon, the more it hurts. If I could retrace my steps, definitely I would, after knowing the way of life. Mistakes, regrets, it’s common.  ”If you think you are facing a big problem, others are even facing a bigger one.” I couldn’t stop comforting myself with this phrase. Hopefully, I won’t face another sleepless night again.

Nights,people.

Hopes.

I stepped foot into the pitch of pioneer secondary, clueless of what laid ahead. Thought I was going to have a hard time integrating into the new team. New faces, new cliques, new coaches. True indeed, the phase of adaptation sucks. But beyond the adaption comes the comfort. It’s amazing how the geek and the funky could amalgamate and strive together as one. I still feel that I’m losing all the great players we used to have. I’ve lost their contacts. And even the coach doesn’t have that, pathetic. I shall burn this past of mine and start anew as a freshmen in this sports, rugby.

Again.

Okay, I shall not procrastinate.